Life is hard, eternal life is better!

I am not sure who sings that song. I should someday try to find out. I will have to add that to my "look up list".

Sometimes it seems as if life is too hard. You just want to give up! There is so much tragedy and heartache all around us.

Kitty and Matt were so excited to have a new life coming into their lives. The joy on their faces just radiated. This baby was so loved. Tragedy struck and Kitty lost him. He was a perfect little boy. Sometimes I get angry thinking about it! She had just been to the emergency room the night before and they sent her home. Just gave her some pain meds and sent her home. The next morning as she prepared to go to the doctor to get more help, he was born. Way too early. He was gone before anything could be done. WHY????? I know all the classic answers: Maybe something was wrong (tests show he was perfect); God wanted a baby in heaven; He is in a better place; too many more to mention.

This is what I do know. God is good. It may not seem like it sometimes, but he is crying right along side of us. He loves babies. I will not falter in my faith. Pastor Peacock once told me that "Faith has questions". I will cling to my faith even though I don't doubt God or faith, I do have questions. But life can sometimes be really hard, but I know whom I believe and that eternal life with him will be GREAT!!

Life in the citty

Wow. I thought I was done living the city life, but Rocke's job has brought him here so here we are! We recieved news about a month ago that Rocke's ABL counts were up slightly. We were surprised due to the fact that results before that showed he was in remission. I decided that I would take a leave of absence from my job so that I could be with him. I cannot imagine my life without this man. He is my "Rock". Christ is number one but Rocke keeps me grounded and stable. I would be more of basket case if it wasn't for him. The Lord tells us that he will never leave us or forsake us. Sometimes I think that I have put Rocke before my GOD. I am working on this. Perhaps that is why GOD is giving me a reality check. Though I cannot imagine my life without Rocke, I really couln't make it through this life without my Lord and redeemer. He is my "fortress and help in times of trouble". I couldn't make it without him to hold me. I pray that my children will see this truth before and if anything happens to their Dad. Prayer keeps me going. I have so many people praying for Rocke and I. I can feel those prayers, they surruond me like a great big hug. Thank you Lord for all you have done and continue to do.